I am so confused about what I want these days. I know what I want as a career, I know what I want in friends. But you ask me what I want in a college, or guys, or family and I have no idea. Guys are like a mythical creature. As much as you want to understand, seek and win them over, they will always find themselves above you. More powerful and heart provoking. Creatures that confuse the living day lights out of me. SO CONFUSED. Do I want a nice boy, a fun one, a bad boy. Do I want someone to sing me to sleep or play guitar for me. Someone to play games with, or to walk down the beach with. And I can find a boy for each of these topics and yet I cant find ONE boy. Well, I lie. I have, but that just cannot happen. Atleast I dont believe it can...SEE confused.