The sun feels amazing outside. I have been soaking it up for the past two hours. And oh how nice it is :]

I am really wanting to go see The Last Song. But NO. People just can't because of Miley Cyrus. Really guys?

Its just a person.

Rant.

Let's start off with a big I'M SORRY. It has been over a month since I sat down and just wrote. Yikes. What is up with that. Well, I know what's up with that. But, I shall not expose that info. A lot has happen. A lot that I would like to tell, and some, not so much. It's not that it would hurt me, but I am really trying to move past the last week or so. Move past and move on. So hard to actually do, but hey, at least I am trying! I have decided on a college. Do you want to know? Drum roll please..........UNCW! WOO. I am visiting it in the next couple of days. It just looks..right for me. Mostly, because how close it is to the beach. And you know me and the beach. Best friends and all. I am really hoping that it is the place for me. For four years.

Anyway, tonight is a Hannah and Heather night. I have not had that in forever. And I am stoked. I really need it. Enough said.

One of those things I really just want to rant about is the phrase "Let Go." Oh, how these two words have been pushed into my head the last week or so. Or my life time I guess you could say. "Let Go" of what has hurt you. "Let Go" of the past. "Let Go" of that person. "Let Go" of the remote. A phrase tossed around so much. You get what it means in most cases. MOVE ON. Yeah, Yeah. You can tell it will be best for me. It will make me realize what I am worth. Blah blah blah. I get it. I really really do. I am not that naive. HOWEVER! It's not that easy. When You pour yourself into something. A time. A Person. A Place. You don't let go. Why you may ask? Because you love it. "But it will get better!" Awesome. Cool. I get that. I do. But it's not better now. And what that Person, or place, or thing always made it better before, you cling even harder. So the "Let Go" phrase is worthless. Because you cant. Because you hope that that place or person or thing can fix this. Even if they are causing it.

Now, maybe you person (if anyone even reads this) have never felt that strong..connection..or pull towards something. You will. I know you will. Everyone has. And everyone survives. Even if they feel like they do not. But the whole "Eating a pint of ice cream while watching really sad movies and drowning in blankets with your best friends" thing, really does help.

Some take the whole "punishment" route of dealing with break ups, or fights or distance. You go ahead and do that, if that some how helps you. I don't get how it would , but maybe it does. It makes me sad that hurting the one thing or one person you love someone helps you, but I cant talk you out of it.

Then some go to extreme measures. I do not support. So I will not talk about it. Go ahead and think what you will.

I suggest mourning. Then occupying yourself. Then finding something new.

I mourned. I occupied myself. Now. The something new..

I am leaning towards writing. It makes me happy, obviously. I love ranting. Giving my side of the story. Trying my hardest to help myself while helping others.

I think I am done for the day. I don't know when my next post will be, I might start writing on my computer on Word. Or maybe I will invest in an internet card. Either way, I will be back. Writing appeals to me.