Life

I have learned a lot about this world in my 17 years of life. And you think you have it all figured out because life is good. Your friends are happy, your family is happy, and you are happy. And yet, one little shake in the foundation of my world, and it all falls apart. In one day, I almost lost two friends, I lost the guy I would wait for forever, I became more and more confused about what I am doing. My purpose seems to be hidden from me. I got mad at God, which I have never done before and I did not want to forgive him, but of course I did. I am a lost child in this world even though I have so much. I am by no means hopeless, for I have more than most. But, does God realize that I am lonely? Has he followed my path and found out that I am lonely enough. I need a change. Maybe not drastically. But something. I want someone who wants to hold my hand and walk with me in the park. Someone who I inspire, and someone who inspires me. I thought I had that a few years back, but I was wrong. Will God give me that? Will I become a lonely creature who grows to never trust before God gives me what I want?