I am very excited about this weekend. So, tomorrow I am getting my prom dress altered with me madre, then I really don't know after. Maybe hanging with friends and such. Then Saturday Sarah and me are going to the BEACH. YES! Beach. Beach. Beach. Oh how I love thee. I really hope it wont be TOO cold. I want to buy a yellow bathing suit.. Why you may ask? Well, on Tuesday when me and mom got to Wilmington AN HOUR AND A HALF early (haha) we decided to waste time in Target. And I tried on this ADORABLE bathing suit top that had yellow ruffles. And I loved it. But sadly, it was too big for me. Oh well. But yellows nice..Why am I talking about yellow..

Anyway. Today I am attempting to set up my math placement test for UNCW but me madre has to do it since I do not have a credit card to pay for it and all. So I THINK I am going to go to the library and get some random books and maybe some stuff on Lord of the Rings. DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHHYYYY!? Cause I am writing a paper on Tolkien! Woo Hoo! Haha what an awesome topic. I am excited. But I really don't like research papers, oh well. Then I'm having dinner with Sarah and doing other stuff. Yeah! Then headed back to the good ole Benson. Woo.

I really miss some people. You know? I miss Pope and I miss Jessica and how things were. Before life sped up.

Most people are counting down the days left of highschool. Yeah, I will be so glad to be done, but I am still going to miss it. It is definitely bitter sweet. I will miss Cameron, Pope, James, RJ, and Spencer. Yeah, I will still talk to them, but I wont get to see them as much. I guess during the summer I will, but Cameron has God. Pope has Jordan. James and Lauren. RJ has music and whatever it is he will do (cough cough) and Spencer has Haley. I am so happy for all of them. They are all in love with someone or something. That is an amazing feeling. Yeah, I have it. I guess having them also just makes me life grand.

I will make it grand. I must. I just have to. I will spend my days riding my new bike (when I get it) and going to the beach and signing and making RJ write songs with me. And spending as much time with all of my friends.

Speaking of friends and writing songs and such, I wrote a song for Alex's niece the other day. I have not finished the music yet (I am hoping someone will help me/sing with me. Cough Cough RJ and Spencer) but I will. Someday. I love it so much. It's about not running away because youre scared. Just stay for those who really need you. And though people these can be all dramatic, (yes, I can be like that as well. who isnt sometimes) we are all needed. I promise you. We all make some type of purpose in this life. And thats what that songs means to me. To never ever ever give up. I say it some time, but I never actually would. I feel sorry for myself sometimes, but I would never leave. Because I am needed and wanted in some way. Yep.

So Alex stays for Stephanie. And I stay for him. Simple.

Yep, so I am going to fill out a scholarship, maybe eat some lunch. Watch a few Monks. :] Because I just can't help myself. I love it. And head to the library probably. Smile guys. Life is grand :]