Music feeds my Soul

Whoa, I have not blogged in a LONG time. Christmas time was really busy and school started back and then musical auditions. HECTIC. Well, I got into the musical. This year we are doing You're A Good Man Charlie Brown. How exciting. I am actually the Little Red Headed Girl (I wonder why) and I am Sally's understudy. Woo. Go me. These lasts few weeks have been..well lets just say interesting. I fought with my best friend, who doesn't really tell me anything anymore. Or doesn't want to. It frustrates me, but I am trying my hardest to not let it get to me. I find it so hard to relate to people these days. Because everyone seems to get upset or mad or something these days. And I don't understand why. People become defensive over the smallest things. It confuses me. Maybe, its because I am happy and I wont let the small things upset me. I am happy for the first time in a long time. And I cannot help but want to share my happiness even though half my friends don't really care. But honestly, it doesn't bother me. I find myself relying more and more on my music. It is what is here for me. It holds me at night when someone hurts me, showers me in love when love isnt found anywhere else. So I write. And its a wonderful feeling. At this moment, I am talking to someone who also loves music and writing and singing the way I do, and it feels good to have someone to relate to me like that. Most people think its amazing that I write and sing and stuff, but no one understands...except him. It feels nice to not be alone in this world. Anyway, so I plan on recording covers soon. Then hopefully demos. I just am ready for my life to start. Singing. Anything really. And to be honest, I want new people. Because it seems like I am not good enough for a lot of people in my life. But, it doesnt bother me. Those people in my life who randomly decide im not good enough or not worth their time, well, ill write a song about you. And I will get over it. Thats the beauty of music. I am in love with singing and writing. I cannot picture myself with any other life. And even if my parents or grandparents do not support me, I will try. Because its heartbreaking to me to think of any thing else.